Sabotage

So, I have this new thing now because I am just not happy with where I'm at right now with my weight. I feel as though I am finally gaining a confidence about myself that has not always been there; however, I just can't seem to get myself to a point where I can make the necessary changes to get myself in shape. Therefore, I've adopted a new thing regarding sabotage. I ask myself each time before I eat something- "Am I committing sabotage against myself by eating this?". If the answer is yes, then I quickly ask myself if it is worth it. I've been doing quite well with this new perspective until today- Thanksgiving! I, for some reason, felt the need to gorge myself with food! Hunger was not a part of the equation. How crazy is that?!
Anyway, I guess the thing for me to remember is that this is not reason to stop doing what I've been doing. Rather, it is reason to press on and keep working hard.
TTFN
-N

Family Sick Day

So, today was unexpected- a day home with my family! I am, unfortunately, under the weather- as is my dear husband and daughter. But, that's okay- we've managed to make the best of it! I made blueberry pancakes (which I initially forgot to put the necessary eggs into!) and pancakes for breakfast:o) Yummy!!! Or, in RivkaSpeak- MMMMMmmmm!!!! Num, num!
We even had a family pillow fight! Hehe- Rivka was beside herself with laughter! They say laughter is the best medicine, right?

So, I've been thinking; rather, stewing over some ideas as of late. Here I am in nursing school and I'm no where near as healthy as I need to be! Here are some goals I have:
1) Taking time out for some me and God time each day.
2) Journaling on a more frequent basis to get my thoughts out and 'destress'
3) Exercising daily
4) Being conscientious of what I'm eating and whether or not I am committing sabotage with my body... more to come on that one later.

So, there it is. I am making a commitment to myself to start taking care of me because, well, I matter!

Okay- that's it for now.

N