Sabotage

So, I have this new thing now because I am just not happy with where I'm at right now with my weight. I feel as though I am finally gaining a confidence about myself that has not always been there; however, I just can't seem to get myself to a point where I can make the necessary changes to get myself in shape. Therefore, I've adopted a new thing regarding sabotage. I ask myself each time before I eat something- "Am I committing sabotage against myself by eating this?". If the answer is yes, then I quickly ask myself if it is worth it. I've been doing quite well with this new perspective until today- Thanksgiving! I, for some reason, felt the need to gorge myself with food! Hunger was not a part of the equation. How crazy is that?!
Anyway, I guess the thing for me to remember is that this is not reason to stop doing what I've been doing. Rather, it is reason to press on and keep working hard.
TTFN
-N

Family Sick Day

So, today was unexpected- a day home with my family! I am, unfortunately, under the weather- as is my dear husband and daughter. But, that's okay- we've managed to make the best of it! I made blueberry pancakes (which I initially forgot to put the necessary eggs into!) and pancakes for breakfast:o) Yummy!!! Or, in RivkaSpeak- MMMMMmmmm!!!! Num, num!
We even had a family pillow fight! Hehe- Rivka was beside herself with laughter! They say laughter is the best medicine, right?

So, I've been thinking; rather, stewing over some ideas as of late. Here I am in nursing school and I'm no where near as healthy as I need to be! Here are some goals I have:
1) Taking time out for some me and God time each day.
2) Journaling on a more frequent basis to get my thoughts out and 'destress'
3) Exercising daily
4) Being conscientious of what I'm eating and whether or not I am committing sabotage with my body... more to come on that one later.

So, there it is. I am making a commitment to myself to start taking care of me because, well, I matter!

Okay- that's it for now.

N

Fine! I'll post a friggin' post!

It has been brought to my attention that I am a negligent blogger. So... in response to this ludicrous accusation, I have decided to post! So, HA!!! :oP

The Addiction of Blogging

So, I came to realize last night that Brandon had no clue that I had an account with blogger. That's right... kamnan.blogspot.com was my deep and dark secret! Evil laugh!!!!
Well, I decided to set up an account for the both of us which you will find at thekamfam.blogspot.com. In so doing, I spent a good portion of my day putzin' around trying to figure out how to get everything set up. And then it hit me... this could SO easily become an addiction!

Thought for the day: "I wonder if there's a Bloggers Anonymous?"

TIFN-

N

The Little Engine that Could- and did, for that matter!

January is, notably, a traditional time in this culture to review our mess-ups from the previous year and figure out how to make this new year a little bit better. I guess the idea being that if you don't make the same mistake twice that your life will inevitably be better. Interesting concept.

Brandon and I have found ourselves doing a lot of reflection as of late. We've been asking a lot of 'why' oriented questions.

It's funny how the smallest things in your life can actually provide you with the most profound thoughts and revelations. Our daughter, Rivka, is now a little fiesty 1 year-old. But, she does enjoy the occasional video. Well, her favorite video for now is "The Little Engine that Could". I've been watching this video with her over and over and over and.... I think you get the point!

Anyway, as I was watching it yesterday I suddenly had an eye-opening moment. Brandon and I have been so freaking afraid of failure that we haven't been willing to put our whole hearted faith in God. Instead of just going for it and moving out in faith, we decided to go the safe route (mind you, I'm very thankful for the relationships Rivka has developed in our stay here in MD). However, it is becoming very clear to Brandon and I that we need to leave MD for good and make a life for our family elsewhere.

So, for 2007 here's my resolution- to stop trying to do it myself! Okay, maybe that's my lifetime resolution. But, I can definitely take baby steps along the way to make that happen. Watching Rivka learn to walk has been such a joy- her spills and falls are actually helping her become a stronger walker. Isn't that just amazing?! She's now running... and climbing... and ready to overcome the next obstacle. It's no wonder Jesus said we need to be more like children... we really don't learn enough from them.

Well, that's it for now.

N